Haiis this few day alot alot alot of things happen i have been starting to think tat why this have become this way..I am really very confuse i am nw choosing frm wad i am nw and wad i nid frm the future..Haiis i dont want in the future me or u to get hurt maybe i am still trying to think and figure out wad should i do u have memories so do i i have loads to think abt and no one truly kw the inside me ppl see only the appearance and the strong side of me but deep down i am just freaking soft and thinking abt the past but i dont wish to show out tat i am weak and just let other ppl thinks tat i have no past i have already forgotten abt the past but the truth is i haven maybe things are going this way cause i thought abt my past the past of me the hurtful moments the things i have done the personality i have..All this have started to come back so i think tat i nid a break i dont want to hurt u nor hurt myself i am starting to think and choose..I am sry..I dont want this to happen but i really nid a break and i have to really keep myself to think and change back to myself before i decide anything i dont want to make a harsh decision and hurt u and myself i dont want to make u think tat i am just a bastard i dont want anything bad to happen tats why i am trying to think very hard..Yes i may love you but i dont want anything happen to us tat even friends also cannot be!!Haiis i am sry..

Okay reaaders sorry that i didn't posted for such a long time~Yeah its kinda dead..ain't gonna care abt those freaking stupid problems...Just gonna live my life well and count each step i took~I am freaking confuse right now but i am gonna sort out my thoughts my feelings my everything..Haish whenever i am down and confuse, all out alone in the middle of the night could'nt concentrate on my work,couldn't concentrate on anything else i would think of coming here and post my thoughts..Actually i wouldn't fall that deep for you Jaslyn but those words u said really make me feel loved..Yes, i kw i should'nt fall for you but i guess i had already did..Do u kw that when u said those words from that little moment i had already fall for u girl..But i guess everything right now this situation its just sux..why didn't i came in earlier in your life..why must u be attach?Haish i really dk wad should i even do..Love is selfish thats wads everyone told me and asked me to fight for something i think its worth for but when i putted in the effort wads ur effort?Haish not gonna care those nonsense..like a kid only~Stopping here already peeps just feeling tired going off to complete my work and go to sleep~