It's 0715 right nw and guess wad i am stalking ppl just to update myself wads really going on right nw..Today i found out wads really happening and i am quite gald to kw wads going on with myself..This few weeks i came clear to kw tat i stopped socialise and started to avoid at times..I wondering wad is happening to me and wads really going on with me right nw and i keep on thinking and thinking and nw i finally get the answer to my question..I finally understand tat i really haven move on and still trying to get up on my feet to move on..I could actually wear a mask out everyday whn i go out but when i came home things memories flash back has all started..I finally understand why ppl cant really move on..It's not tat he/she love the other person too much it's the love tat will not fade for tat person and it's very miserable whn u are trying to run away frm it..I always tries to buried it and think tat i have move on and get over it but when i go into a relationship flash back of those memories starts right infront of me i can see it but i cant touch it all those beautiful memories fade right infront of me and tears started to gather in my eyes..Its hard to stop it from flowing down..There is a wound in my heart tat is hard to heal..Not even time heals my wound...I have really been thinking tat i am just a bastard,hongster and not a good bf tats wad i really am?Maybe i am!!No point finding back of the trust,confidence and courage..Its better to be alone..