Hmmm readers sooo sorry didn't have the time to post so today just feel like coming bak to post as tmr i have no work:)..Hmm this few week have happen alot of things and i am really tired and totally no mood to think..I thought tat i could run away frm reality but i noe tat one day i still nid to face the fact..Its soo hard to face the fact when u are trying to run away frm it...Come to facing the fact..I think back tat i were facing all my problem and helping ppl with their problem and asking ppl to face the fact but nw i am just trying to run away frm it..I think it kind of tired to face all thoese problem so trying to avoid them rather then solving it..I finally know wads the feeling of falling frm the top to the bottom of ur life..I feel very zombie nw a days..My everyday life was dont sleep and wait till 5plus call ppl to accompany me to eat breakfast and i noe its hard for ppl to accompany me but they still come when i am at the bottom of my life..Thanks to thoese ppl cause they finally make me face the fact as i cant always be a machine..Even machine break down..Soo kind of after eating breakfast went to walk walk and then went to work..This few days have been working and taking off to think wad shld i really do?I finally have the courage to face the fact and nw i am back to myself..Every night i have been thinking why am i trying to break inoccent heart when someone break my to million piece..So i decided to go on my own life with or without going into a realationship..Its kind of funny when i think back this few week..No matter hw i tell myself it always bring me back thinking..Hmm kind of late nw its 4.30a:m so i think i better end here and go to slp liao will be back posting soon:)