Hmmm readers sooo sorry didn't have the time to post so today just feel like coming bak to post as tmr i have no work:)..Hmm this few week have happen alot of things and i am really tired and totally no mood to think..I thought tat i could run away frm reality but i noe tat one day i still nid to face the fact..Its soo hard to face the fact when u are trying to run away frm it...Come to facing the fact..I think back tat i were facing all my problem and helping ppl with their problem and asking ppl to face the fact but nw i am just trying to run away frm it..I think it kind of tired to face all thoese problem so trying to avoid them rather then solving it..I finally know wads the feeling of falling frm the top to the bottom of ur life..I feel very zombie nw a days..My everyday life was dont sleep and wait till 5plus call ppl to accompany me to eat breakfast and i noe its hard for ppl to accompany me but they still come when i am at the bottom of my life..Thanks to thoese ppl cause they finally make me face the fact as i cant always be a machine..Even machine break down..Soo kind of after eating breakfast went to walk walk and then went to work..This few days have been working and taking off to think wad shld i really do?I finally have the courage to face the fact and nw i am back to myself..Every night i have been thinking why am i trying to break inoccent heart when someone break my to million piece..So i decided to go on my own life with or without going into a realationship..Its kind of funny when i think back this few week..No matter hw i tell myself it always bring me back thinking..Hmm kind of late nw its 4.30a:m so i think i better end here and go to slp liao will be back posting soon:)

Damn tu lan today...Grrrr today didnt slp a wink in the morning then after tat wanted to give her a surprise in the morning but end up she told me tat she rushing..Then nvm thought of seeing her after sch but she got cca..Haiis so went bak hm to take a rest then after tat wake up damn phone thingy is sooo piss off..Grr nvm went to do my phone then went down to find doreen then text her she is at jurong then so shag cannot meet her..Haiis nvm today didn't get to see her..Then went to 2nd hm with doreen slacked there awhile then went hm..Soo at hm called her to chat..Chatted for around 1hr then actually want to go see movie but end up didn't get to see cause close liao so nvm went bak hm and nw i am using my com posting..Haiiss i also duno why this few days i having attuide problem and is like wth larx..I am sorry to thoese ppl who get my attuide problem..Hmm also nth much to post lerx good night readers..

Hmm today nth much happen went down to dover ite to do my ite things hais go down and go down still the same then wad for sia..Hais..Hmm then after tat went to eat sakae sushi then finish eating went bak hm to take things then went down to westmall to meet weilin hais..Thought of meeting her but end up didn't get to see her hais...soo went to 324 to eat then went to 323 sit sit wahhx damn awkward larx ppl staring at the present i brought out with me haiss...Is like haiss duno hw to say..Then nvm so waited for doreen to come then after tat went to my 2nd hus to slack slack then after tat sent doreen to the bus stop then jiu ownself went to 323 eat then after tat call her talked like 2 to 3 hr at 2nd hm then jiu 10 went bak hm lerx...hahas..Hmm i miss her alot alot but wad to do if she didn't wannt to tell me where she is..Hmm thought of giving her early surprise de lorx but end up didn't get to see her haissss..Hmm i duno lehx i am damn shy and awkward larx when i holding the present but its damn nice^_^ hehes..Hope she will like it like everyone do...Hmm getting kind of late so going to slp lerx..Good night readers..

hmm its been so long nv post lerx...Hahas..Today someone talk abt my blog then i started to think shld i post bak and i thought of it maybe i shld..So i am going to start posting again hehes..Hmm kind of shaggy right nw..Thinking tat is tat really true tat u dont even wan to giv me a chance?Hmm just wanting to wait for the time come..I promise i wont neglect u like others do and i will always be by ur side when u nid me...I promise to care for u and love u always but u did nt belive wad i say..what i say i will really do it..I make my word trust worthy but u didn't belive me wad i say..Hais..Hmm this few days went to drink every night i also duno why am i so shaggy..But when i drunk i only think of u and i hope tat the day will come when u be with me and i am sure i care for u and love u always..Sry but i wont give up soo easily i will wait for u de..And i dind't chuan tong with them to cheat ur feelings i just want to be with u always..I just want to say i love you tats all but u suscept me and thought tat its a trap i am really disapointed in the words u say..I really love u and u think tats a trap haiisss..Hmm nth much more to write good byes reader will be posting soon:(