Today morning wake up then went to wash up..After wash up i sit down to had my breakfast...After breakfast went to use com awhile then after tat i recive a call frm the police station and the sir told me tat i will be going court soon and i nw hope tat nth will happen larx...After tat the policemen tell me to be good nw because if i have any more trouble i sure go in RTC damn tu lan hear liao...Hais then nw i just keep clam and nw trying to hope tat the problem will be solved..Sometimes when u wan something the thing wont be urs but when u dont wan smthing the things will just came bak to u and be urs..Life is so unpredictable...I hope tat everything will go well enought..I hate thoese who infornt of u step like very good to u and then behind backstab like nobody business..Thoese backstabber only have one word to describe them hum ji..Hmm i think nth more to write lerx..Byes readers..

Today went bak home around like morning like tat then mei ling came to my hus then we i went to bath then eat then talk talk awhile then after tat she say i look very tired so she say dont wan disturb me then she go meet her friend at panjang then she ask me to wake up msg her then i was like see my mood hahas...Then after tat went to sleep till like 7plus then wake up wake up liao went to eat then use com then nw think of blogging then i blog lorx....Hmm mei ling is quite a nice girl hahas....Then after tat msg ppl but very less msg alot alot of ppl only want to msg some friend only...Then nw i am damn bored hahas..Yestaday went to drink and ton till morning and hais small things also qurral....hmm quite fun last night..But most of the time fuck up mood..Hmm then nw also nth to do sia..Damn bored..Anyways think of something tonight..Damn important...Nth much more to write liao so ending here...Byes readers

yoy readers hmm i kind of like 4day since i last post...Didnt have the mood to post last few day because of something i have been thinking of..Hmm kind of fuck tub right nw...Dont have the mood to msg ppl also because i am thinking something then nw kind of nth to do and have the isparation to blog then jiu blog lorx..Hmm this few day kind of alot and alot of things happen then nw i also dont care liao i have already prepare for a fight at court and tats wad i have been prepare for!!Hais kind of thinking of wad shld i do shld i go in to a relationship anot or just stay single or wad fuck!!Hais duno larx damn ass...I dont want to lose someone i have feeling but i also dont wan to see her sad...Aiya dont noe larx better die off....I dont noe wheather shld i blog anot because when i blog i think of someone...Hais duno larx...Anyways gtg readers byes..

Currently in a fuck up state tat ppl didnt want to have i have regret to become a gangster and nw i have already change and i hope tat after this i wont do anything..Hmm i today thought of lots of lots of thing..Emoing nw and then...Its like becoming my sec 1 life..Anyway i think of something very intresting..Its this poem....Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something. They're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take...I think and think this is the best i think..There are more poem for someone but i think there are no more nid as some appreciate it but dont show so i dont even think that there are a nid to send it to the person as there are alot of temptation to send it to the person..Hais hmm kind of bored right nw..Hope my case wont be much trouble..Going to do some thing so byes readers..

Hmm have time to go update so just update my song as yestaday cant update...The website is renovating yestaday...Hmm all the songs have meanning..Normal ppl wont understand the meanning as they just think tat its nice to listen but thoese who enjoy listening to song will noe wads behind the song..Every song have a great meanning tat some ppl enjoy...I like to listen to the song i like..I love Kenny G its nice..Jazz is cool..As i think tat ppl will think tat i step mature but no one understand wads jazz for..Only thoese ppl who really enjoy jazz understand..Sometimes i think adult rocks in someway..Hmm finish this subject liao lets get to the main point..Hmm this few day kind of thinking wheather shld i msg someone or nt but i still haven got my answer..Still thinking..Wad shld i do..Am i surpose to cherish every chance before there is really no more chance to msg her as i am running out of time nw..Anytime i will Dissapear and maybe nv coming back wad shld i do?Somethings i think tat i shld nt tell ppl as ppl will get worried but nw i dont think tat everyone will worried they will just be happy tat i am gone..Damn shit...Nvm hmm kind of tired going to think about wads my next move and wad shld i do...

Yoy readers....

Today wake up then went jogging downstair after tat something happen and i was like huh wat the fuck...Damn stun larx...Everytime give me this kind of surprise i was like huh wad to do sia damn du lan larx...Then after tat i was like aiya dont care then i called felicia and chat on the phone then after tat was doing something else then again wad the hell mei yun called me then i was like tell her then she was like huh wad the hell..Then she was so busy tat i waited for a long time then she call me..Then nvm i was like explaining things to her...Hais then the felicia say ltr msg u then i was like waiting like a fool then nw then she msg me nvm....Damn tu lan larx...Hais nvm dont wan care about tat problem liao...Anyways hw is my new blogskin nice?Hehes...The new blogskins got new meaning hahas u all slowly figure out readers hahas....Hmm kind of bored right nw then came of eating and posting larx...Hmm short post today as nth much happen in life...So i am ending her byes reader....

Yoy readers.....

Hmm kind of feel like posting right nw as i am done with my daliy activities....Hmm kind of feeling duno wad the fuck is wrong about me larx also dont understand too....Damn like duno hw to explain the mood i am in nw....Damn fuck up!!!Sometimes i miss the times when i see the ppl i care happy.Making them happy is like a daliy things to do to cheer them up and brighten their day up with just a msg...I hope tat time could be rewind..If time could be rewind i wont even go into any relationship and wont leave anyone alone when they nid me...Even if i noe tat i have feeling for tat person i also wont show tat as realtionship cause problem..I would rather stay by the side of the ppl i have feeling with and the ppl i care for and cheer them up everyday then making akward with each other when i express my feelings....I have pledge on the day and the gate of Singapore Boys Home tat i will cheer up anyone tat nid me by their side but i have falied in some of them...I nw declare tat i will make ppl life happy rather then making a life of hell out of them...I will make time rewind in someway tat its already future but seems like time have rewind...I would pull out some mistake tat will cause things to be akward and my motive is cheer up ppl life ^_^...The day i would cheer up ppl by just a short message with happiness and touching message and i am sure tat i WONT GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP as its spoil up my life...I will wait for the really right time for me to act then i will consider going into a relationship...I nw just nid time to patch up something in life and i am still quite young and i still have lots of time to find my missing piesce...Kind of feeling content right nw i hope tat nw i am making a right decision as i already have made alot of bad decision...Kind of thinking back of the past few month after i come out...At july i met 3 girls tat i think tat they are pretty nice and i have a great time spending with them..Seeing them smile is like a daliy medicine to me..Seeing them sad i felt sorrow in them and no matter wad i do i will still end up cheering them up...When i cheer them up seeing them smile i felt content and i feel tat i am blessful tat i have such kind of friend..Laughter around the world is the best medicine tat doctor can give because laughter is a happy things tat make ppl content rather then love up and down up and down nt even a stable realationship...Relationship nids trust without trust there is no ever lasting love...Other then trust there are other important things tat realtionship must have and without them its no much more feeling left anymore..When 2 person together they have really love each other but soon they found out tat there are some mistake and cant settle it then it will come to a end there as they dont wan hurt each other anymore....I rather have a ever lasting friendship then having a not so stable relationship....To be continued by the next post...

Yoy reader.....

Hais kind of like the timming of my posting time as there are much more things to think in the night then in the day when in the night u can slowly have a thought of everything and relax urself but sometimes i just cant realx myself and i try to relax myself so i can get some sleep but i just cant sleep....Hais.....hmm kind of thinking of something tat i cant come to a point of tat....Do everyone bear to let go of somethings they treasure and cherish for a long time?Most answer will be ya of cos can let go but the truth is nobody can as the thing u treasure and cherish for a long time have a place in ur heart like it is staying in ur heart...When u think tat u can let go of it and u have already let go of it but the truth is u haven....U still want to cherish the thing because u know tat u nid the thing in ur life...Everyone thinks tat they can let go of it but wads the point of escaping reality when night falls everything came bak in ur mind and like a tape repalying and replaying the whole night...U know tat u cant live without it...When night falls all thoese memories u think tat its is long forgoten came back u will feel sad damn sad...Tears will flow out of ur eyes....The tears tat u cant control and the tears of ur true feelings....But all i have just to know tat morning i am tooo busy doing lots of lots of thing so tat i can forget everything and escape reality but i am nt such a person and i want to bak to my ownself tat face reality me and have the courage to stand up again....This is the biggest fall of my life and i want to stand up again...I dont wan to lose something percious ever again....I think tat my confidence in myself have came back and nw left is just my courage....Nw i can only depend on myself to find courage to stand up on my own....Hmm tats all for tonight nitez.

Yoy readers...

Today is already a very long day that i have long forgotten wads love is all about hmm no time to think about love anymore there are much more thing to stress about i nw dont even have time for love but i will still try to go to the last place and hope tat everything on tat day will go well as i have predicted tat there will be alot of unwanted trouble on tat day so i think tat i must be prepare for thoese unwanted trouble...Hope tat my life wont be so miserable anymore...I think tat nw i am having karma...Trouble are befalling on me more and more of it....I think tat i have done wrong alot in thoese past few years back and nw i am going to change for the better...Everytime i think back the past few years i felt like tat i am really a bastard....I have understand why i have lesser friend last time and nw tat i have change i have more friend but most of the so called"friend" backstabbed me in the back but act like nth happen infront of me...I thought of going back to the past few years back the me tat is a damn bastard and give ppl no way out when they did something wrong....But think back if i go back to my last time me i must be prepared for more and more unwanted trouble and will put my life at stake as alot ppl waiting for the chance to get me in hospital...But to defend myself i must be prepare to go in to sit again...So i think and think the past few day wad shld i do be a good guy or a bad guy...There are advantage to be a good guy and there are disadvantage to be a good guy...There are also good advantage to be a bad guy and alot of disadvantage to be a bad guy...Hais begin trouble right nw...Thinking and thinking wad shld i do...Hais this few day cant even sleep properly thinking of thoese bad deeds i do last few years....I am really very sry to thoese who i have hurt and end up in the hospital...The last time me a sorry is like u want my life like tat but nw i have already grown up so i must think like an adult not like a teen act stupidly...No offence okay..But i think tat when teen are growing up they must suffer hardship and when they do something they must think of the outcome and be prepare to face the music...I think tat teens nid to suffer in a place they really nid to depend on them self to learn frm their mistake and repent frm their mistake...I act foolishly and went to sit in a terible places but when thing u look frm the bright side its acctually quite fun and u still can make new friends....Hmm kind of write alot already so got to go and have some slp...Good night readers.

This few day happen alot of things....I am now very very the stress...I am nw having lots of lots of problem..I dont want to face reality nw and i wan to go hide some where but i noe i am nt like this de.....I am finding bak wad i am the last time me having lots of lots of courage and guts but tat was last time...Last time i have friend to support me lots of lots of them but nw there is so much mess and I felt tat i am losing all my friend...I think there are only few friend in my life tat i shld treasure and cherish...Some friend are taking me for granted and have enought use of me they will just stab me in the bak...I nw also duno wad to do....Sry dolly but somethings i am nt acting rush or wad its just tat i have my own reason too..The reason nt anyone can understand!!!!I would try to arrange sometimes to go out with the ppl in my life tat gave me surrport when i nid it....I am on my own nw to find bak my courage and i will try to be brave and face all my problem is...I finally change to nt be a gangster but like they all say a gangster is always a gangster but i think tat i have finally change :D....Hope tat the ppl i want to meet in my life will have sometime to spare because i duno when will be the next time i see them...Maybe nv?Its up to fate...I finally understand wad life is all about.

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Yoy reader nw got time so just post lorx...

Hahas this few day also nothing much going on hais damn tired nid to run here run there then relax also relax 1 day only yawn damn tired then must go here go there take thing then pass thing wahhx so irritating but wad to do must do it then can wad hais...Hmm nw i already thought of planing myself for further thing for the next coming week and starting to plan everything in my life:)Have change alot alot liao started to relax myself more and be my happy self again yeeps....This few day going to work on a project in my life tat maybe will bright up my life......Hmm now i want to be myself again...Make laughter around me and see every one around me to be happy...People around the world When u see ur love one happy u will also be happy because happiness is all about love..When u love someone u no nid to be with her to let her have happiness...When u are around her u make her happy laughter with u its is already all about love...The best is when u see her happy u will be satisfied and will keep tat memories as the best memories with her..I finally understand tat memories with ur love one will keep ur life happy when u think of tat memories...Hmm enought of meaningful words nw lets continue with my life...Hais dont like to run around and around but wad to do must run around...Hais hmm thinking of meeting up my friend tat i haven contact lately as was very busy...Hmm nth much to write liao so i am ending here....

Yoy readers.....

Hmm duno why i just feel like posting so i came to post abt this few day things.....Hmm this few days was quite busy nid to go around alot alot of places to do things hais damn tired....The worst is there is some bitch keep on calling and disturbing my slp damn tu lan...Just want to get some peaceful sleep also cannot..Everytime call at the wrong time...I also duno why this world why got thiings called msg because some people think tat calling is the best!!!Damn tu lan!!!Hais nvm forget abt it soon too busy liao....Hmmmm kind of having alot and alot of hatred but i also cannot do anything promise people nt to be harsh...Hmm got to have patince but i cant hold my patince much much longer...I feel kind of quiet this few day also duno why...Dont message alot like last time...Hmm hate somethings in life but wad to do...Must let go of something jiu let go bahx...Na de qi fang de sia....Damn tu lan all the backstabber...Hate it....When around dont dare say anything but behind stab like nothing...Only noe hw to por lam pa and then backstab ppl behind...Hate this kind of ppl!!!!!!!!Grrr Nvm hmm me haven got some slp this few day like wad the hell damn tired also cannot get some peaceful sleep...Hais nvm hmm still got wad to talk about ahhh hmm Hate all thoese hongster...Sometimes nt i wan to break ur heart Dolly ho but is wad i shld do because i dont wan to hurt u deeper u will undestand some other times.....Hmm me wan to do something else lerx hahas so got to go byes